A weird feeling

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 It’s a weird feeling when you feel your happiness slipping away.

I can’t stop thinking about us,

I think about you at the end of the day.


I lay in bed with our last date just repeating in my head. 

Wondering where it all went wrong and it fills my head with dread. 


I know I can be needy and I need the constant reassurance. 

Now you’re miles away and I hate how we have built this distance. 


I keep wondering  if I am even a thought inside your mind. 

I keep trying to be your friend and I just want us to be kind.


I feel like I am a bother to you. 

That you have better things to do.

I am not telling you how you feel, I’m telling you my overthinking thoughts. 

It’s not emotional manipulation, it’s insecurity and scared of your loss.


But my insecurities and overthinking mind was something you couldn’t handle. 

Now I just randomly cry and lay in a dark room staring at a candle. 

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