Sad Songs

 I wish people could feel for a second the loathing I have for myself. 

I lay awake at night figuring out what’s wrong with me. 

It spirals into anxiety. 

I have the perfect cocktail of anxiety and depression. 

“Your music is always so sad” 

I mean I listen to music that I can feel. 

These songs I blast and sing in my car.

They are better at understanding me than any of my friends ever will. 

I wish I didn’t feel this way.

I wish I could be happier than I let on. 

I wish people could understand the way that I feel. 

But for now I’ll just listen to the sad songs.