Destined to be alone

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Maybe I’m not worthy of love.

I constantly wonder this.

I wonder if it’s just me?

Whenever I feel like things are going well,

They always leave me for someone else. 


I sit and think to myself what do they have that I don’t?

I now want to prove to myself that I can be loved.

Maybe I’m unlovable. 

Destined to be alone. 


Because the only common factor with all these men, is me. 

What do I do wrong?

What is wrong with me? 

Too fat, not pretty?

Not funny, not romantic?

Is it my personality? 


Friendzoned constantly. 

We get closer and then they run. 

I should be a magician because I’m good at making men disappear. 

I hate that I think of myself in this way.

But with a track record like mine 

It’s impossible to not think that I’m the problem

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