Thoughts while sick in bed

Sick in bed.

Laying in bed for days with this infection.

Coughing, sweating, sleeping, uncomfortable.

Sitting in my thoughts, unable to control them.

Thinking of how to become a better version of myself.

Skinnier, prettier, happier, healthier.

Everything I could be doing, instead of laying here.

I hate this.

Watching movies on my list of "Need to watch"

Feeling better then standing up for too long.

Wanting to collapse from the overwhelming effort of standing.

I just want to feel like myself again.

What is feeling like myself?

Writing sad poems about all the men who disappoint me.

Being angry about everything going wrong in my life.

Trying to create content that not even my friends will "like, comment, and subscribe" to?

Being in a room full of people and feeling alone.

I feel like I am letting everyone down being stuck in my room, in this bed.

Laying here incapable of doing anything except consuming media.

Watching girls on youtube telling me how to get out of a rut.

Taking notes on how to be a better version of myself.

When I get over this infection, I will become fit and healthy.

I am going to be the best version of myself and then everything will get better.

I just need to get better so I can become better.

That way, everyone will see me and like me.