Loneliness and Peace

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 I confuse myself between loneliness and peace. 

I enjoy my peace more than I should. 

Yet I yearn to be wanted for time. 


I can be in a crowded bar with friends and feel empty.

I can be in a bar alone, reading a book and feel utter happiness.


I can be out with close ones and be joyous and amused.

I can sit in my room and feel a wave of self loathing.


Can one be truly happy alone and also depressed? 

Is it loneliness if you want to spend time with another but not want a relationship? 

If I choose one path do I win or lose? 


A soulmate should compliment me, not be a missing piece. 

If I choose to be with someone, do I have to give up something I love? 


I enjoy my loneliness, because my loneliness is also my peace. 

I despise my loneliness for I feel discomfort and comfort while sitting alone with my thoughts. 


Can I be lonely and at peace simultaneously? 

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