It’s not you, it’s me

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 “It’s not me, it’s you.”

The line people always use. 

But why is it always me?

The one who is hurt constantly.


I fear I will be alone.

I’ve never found that perfect person.

Maybe, I’m suppose to end up on my own.


My friends always get mad when I tell them I feel this way. 

But I don’t think they understand how I’ve become comfortable with the pain. 

I am familiar with my loneliness and it’s not killing me.

It’s opened up my eyes for the true reality that I see. 


I am a lover girl with a big heart. 

But maybe it’s too big for them. 

That’s why after I’m the one in tears falling apart.

I wonder what’s wrong with me all of the time. 

I just get sad and write down all these lines. 


I don’t know anyone who truly understands where my mind is at. 

“Focus on yourself and the right one will come along. “

But I have focused on myself. 

Focused on myself so much that I don’t know if a relationship is for me. 

No one realized the thoughts that I have are very melancholy. 


I am too much, go find less. 

Except I am the one who puts myself in every mess. 

Men don’t want a woman like me. 

I am loud, weird, and extremely goofy.


They don’t want to ruin our friendship or a better girl came along. 

I am just the placeholder for when you find the right one. 


When you’re the girl who is always the option, it’s hard to see your true worth. 

“It’s not you, it’s me.”

Is the biggest lie I’ve ever heard and I know I will never truly be seen. 

I know it’s not you, because the issue is always me. 

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