Disappear

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 If I disappeared today how long would it take for my friends to notice.

I put my friends first always.

I am their biggest supporters and their number one fans.

I always want to show up for them and root for them to win. 


I don’t receive that.

I try to create content but never get support. 

When my friends post I comment, like, and praise them. 

Never receiving in return. 

I just wish I had the same type of friends who support me the way I support them.


If I don’t hear from them for awhile I always reach out.

I always send morning messages and make sure they’re doing okay. 


If I disappeared today. 

I don’t even know if they’d notice. 

Maybe a week or so will go by.

Maybe even a month. 


I don’t even think they would be apart  of a search party.

They wouldn’t be out looking for me. 

If I was found dead I don’t think they would even request time off for my funeral.


It’s weird to feel so much love for friends but to feel like it’s one sided.

I wish I had a friend who puts in as much effort as I do.

Even when I put in the effort it falls flat.

I am a bother to them all. 


I don’t even think any of them would care if I moved away and never saw them again. 

Maybe I should. 

They might be happier if I was gone. 


Maybe I will disappear tomorrow and see how long it takes for them notice.

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