Lonely

This feeling I get every few months

the feeling of being alone.

I feel like people tolerate me

I am that friend that never gets invited out.

I am the friend who makes you laugh and listens to your problems

I am the one who will always be there for you

I care too much for people who care so little about me.

Why do I try so hard to make everyone around me happy?

I am a people pleaser. 

I always have been.

That is probably why I am a gift giver.

Gifts make people happy.

I show up to work with snacks and treats and everyone loves me for a little bit.

When I get a crush I buy them their favorite things to show how I listen.

It's tough being a people pleaser and the forgotten friend.

You always have this hope that someone will love you and treat you how you treat them.

I have this emptiness inside me that gets awaken randomly.

It's hard for me when I go into this dark space in my mind.

I am supposed to be the bubbly, happy girl all of the time

When I sit in my room alone at night.

Watching movies and tv shows just to make the time go by.

Maybe one day this feeling will pass.

I hate being the forgotten friend.

Always sitting alone in my bed.