Overthink

 I hate the way I overthink 

The thing I really hate

Is everything I overthink 

Usually isn’t something I create 

I come up with scenarios 

They always play around in my head

But then they come true and that’s the thing I dread 

My friends tell me to stop thinking that way 

And how I should be mindful of what I say 

But then it comes true and makes me break down 

Because I hate how it’s just my intuition to know when I’ll be let down 

I get these gut feelings and then I panic and over react 

But then I self destruct into chaos and I believe everything is fact

I hate how much I hate myself

And I believe I am always the reason

My happiness changes more than a year with seasons 

I am my biggest critic and I am my own bully

My friends tell me how great I am but I wish I could believe them truly 

But if you look at my history and see what I’ve been through 

You would think this way about yourself too

Because doing the math the only common denominator is me

Maybe one day I will find someone who can change the way I see.