A place in my heart

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 “Don’t give up on guys 

Everyone lies”

The voice memo you sent me to help me get through 

You’re always the guy that’s here for me after everything I’ve been through 

It’s funny to think you were my first “boyfriend”

And we stayed friends all these years 

You’re the one who sees me ugly cry and wipes away my tears 

You always have a special place in my heart 

Even though we are always apart 

I love when you’re in town and we have our meet ups 

I know we dated in 7th grade but man did I screw that up

You are literally the best person I can’t believe I fumbled 

And now I’m trying to talk to these guys I find on bumble 

You are always the blue print for how I want a guy to treat me 

I know we will always just be friends because that’s how you see me

Our friendship is too important and I would never want to ruin it

Sometimes though I wonder if you ever think about us, even just a little bit?  

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